Lil' Son Chronicles ~ 200"9"

Today I was thinking... September 22^nd. Wow. Where is this year going? It’s just flying on by. And so many good things have occurred. So many new things are on the horizon and you can just feel it in the air. Of course with the new prosperity... come the new problems. But in some cases... for the new to take the form it is to take... sometimes... we have to look back and face past demons. And as this year is coming to an end... my mind is thinking about 2009.

As many know, the number 9 in biblical terms stands for judgment or the end of a matter. For myself, I feel that 2009 will be a year in where many of us will be face with 3 things:

• Reviewing the Covenant with God
• The Call to Return to God
• The Choice of Life or Death

Call me crazy but all of this hit me today while on my way to work. On the bus, I went to open my Bible and I notice a slip of paper. My niece put this paper in my Bible a while back and I’d been moving it from place to place. Well, as I got the paper... I looked at the book I was in. Deuteronomy. This is one book I rarely will hear sermons or anyone in general speak on. But what really got me what the subtitle, “A Call to Return to the Lord.” I quickly skimmed down thru this chapter and saw another subtitle, “The Choice of Life or Death.” Of course I was dumbfounded again and thought to myself, “Okay er’ thang happen in 3’s lol.” And for some reason I flipped a page back to this subtitle, “Moses Reviews the Covenant.” Now I have not read through these chapters but the subtitles to me mean something. Something that is not clear to me, but I have a feeling will become evident in 2009.

I will say this; there is a strong feeling that 2009 will be a year of growing for us all. Hard growing at that. Many this year have flourished in the new beginnings. New jobs, new promotions, yes even in the midst of the economic crisis, we still are prospering in new ways. But the most important thing is that in this year many of us are starting to get the point. Many of us are ready to answer the call from God. And it’s really exciting. Between the examples I’ve been fortunate to see (The Life Center, One Touch Ministries, and Faith United Ministries), the time to answer God’s call is occurring and more people are submitting.

The part of the process that many of us will be going into will be rough especially for 2009. We answer the call, but now God will start to show us some things that we will have to do in order understand and flourish in the call. This may require us to deal with the past events that we buried... or deal with letting go those who do not add to the Kingdom of God. Confronting self-inflicted abuse and so on and so on. It’s going to be difficult... but at the same time we will know that it is needed. Even now, we all understand the importance of Romans 8:28 and as we continue to grow in God we will definitely see it between the lines.

But I say all this because the thought is to runaway... but we must stay in this process because there are so many blessings that will come out of this.

I guess for myself that’s why I go back to Dorinda’s song... Make Me Real... In this song, you get one clear message... to be made real in God. All of the things that I could ask for ... and yet in my heart this is my desire... Some would think... naw you 27... U should be out running women and enjoying life. But I say to that I just can’t shake this hold that God has on me. I don’t care how much intentional wrong that I may do, God is pulling me back every time and saying, “Son okay get back up and follow me.” And what’s crazy is each I get back up... I learn something different that wasn’t there before. It’s crazy also because I’m starting to hear those past sermons when pastors would say, I don’t talk like I use to talk... I don’t walk like I use to walk... And when I look back... so much has changed for the better. And I have no choice but to praise God for this moment.

Father God,

Thank You. How You do what You is something amazing. I don’t think we realize how all the past events... the people we encounter... everything is connected and it all works for a better tomorrow. Thank You God for piecing together everything. Lord, sometimes I think back and wonder why I had to go through the pain of loosing a parent or why I had to go thru being called names as child... or wanting to commit suicide. Often I wonder how I allowed myself to get to these junctions. And yet each time, You were there to save me and to teach me. And today, I stand a lil’ bit strong and wiser and better because I can that I could not have gotten this far by my own merit, but only by the Grace and Mercy you show me. God there are so many things ... so much I can’t even say it all... so I say thank You for who You are. Thank You for forgiving me... for persevering my mom for the best time of her life... for keeping my sisters for the prosperity that they will walk into. Thank You for my godbrothers and how you taking them through journeys that will lead to victory...Thank You for genuine people like Gloria and Jermell... who pour out so much of themselves unselfishly. Fill them all up God with Your Holy Spirit. Lord, make us real for you. Strip us down and build us back up... Have you way in us... We submit to You...

In Jesus Name... Amen.

Lil’ Son Chronicles ~ The Release

Questions: What is it that you need to release?

What is it that has you bound?

Why do you continue to allow your past to dictate you present and to destroy your future?

Is she/he that good in bed that you can’t let go?

Okay you fell down and God picked you up. Now when are you going to forgive yourself?

How many times you have to bump your head before you realize that you got a sore?

When do you sick & tired of being sick & tired?

When do you make the decision to LET IT GO?

THOUGHT: If it means you no good... did not walk on water... did not go to Calvary... fed 5000 men, the women and the children.... can’t turn water into wine... part the Red Sea....

Come’ on said it with me....

LET IT GO....

Lil’ Son Chronicles ~ The Call of the Anointing...

This past weekend I attended a conference, “The Hook Up.” Very good conference indeed. It was a blessing in more ways than I can imagine.

It’s amazing that as men, we tend to hold back on our feelings. We always been told that boys don’t cry and to man up. But let’s be real. Why is that the case? Why is it okay for a woman to show emotion and for a man not to?

My thought on this is that, I think men do show emotions but in some cases it may come across wrong. As well as for women. Women tend to be bit more comfortable with showing emotions, but it too can be twisted because of how others view what is said. But here are some scenarios... draw your own conclusions...

Scenario #1. A young boy is raised by his mother and has 2 other brothers. He’s the baby, so traditionally he would get spoiled. But that’s not the case. You see, his mother has always been the other woman and because she is proud to be the other woman, the young boy never gets the opportunity to know what a real father is like. Nonetheless he mans up and keeps it moving. His childhood is challenging because his older brothers are too enduring the selfishness of their mom and the oldest leaves upon receiving his high school diploma. He never returns. The middle son... well he starts to see the light somewhat, but he realizes that his baby brother will suffer the most. Because of this... the middle son makes a sacrifice so that baby son can live. By God’s grace and mercy, the baby son is introduced to what he considers today to be his family sent from heaven above. This family, wholesome... is filled with love and support. He becomes apart of the family and they introduce him to another way of life.

Today this young boy is a young man. A young man of who is very prosperous in his career and life in general, as far as a nice home and car. And the most important thing is that he has not forgotten where he comes from. Today this young man still wrestles with challenges of the past and present; hence, he starts to deal with his emotions. Such a difficult task because, he is reminded of his brothers and the fellas and how “a real man” doesn’t cry.

But because of how life has presented itself to him, he is forced to do what society says is not normal. Instead of the choices of society, he chooses God. God has given him a gift in where he is able to take control of a situation and come up with a solution... the gift to teach others how to turn your pressure into praise. And through this gift, God has given him grace and mercy and in time will do the impossible in him.

Scenario #2. For over 30 years, a man has been told to act a certain way and he will fit the norm of society. If not, he then faces ridicule all around. But you see, it’s a constant battle because he has been internally scarred because someone that he trusted, violated him so long ago. Who he looked to for love and support; as a father figure... violated him in the worse way. Today this man deals with trying to figure out who he is and why this event occurred to him.

And so he tries to find the answer in him and in her and in alcohol and drugs and any outlet that will give him a sense of security... that is until one day.

After he took his hit of heroin and drank himself into oblivion... after he finished sexing any and everything he could find... he realized something. He was alone... alone with company. The company of spirits... Spirits that meant him no good and wanted to kill... steal, and destroy him. What’s scary is that he can see these spirits... What’s the blessing is that he can see these spirits. Scary because the human side is fearful... A blessing because... in turn God has given him spiritual eyes to see evil and if he can grab a hold of the power that God has given him... he will be able to rebuke each and every spirit in the name of Jesus Christ. The fear in him gives him the opportunity to cry out of pain of the past... the events and the strain... But the spirit man within that now can grow... breaks through the barriers and sees the tears as a sign of nourishment... Nourishment, for God has placed an anointing on this man and finally the anointing has been awakened.

Today... at 43... he is a preacher of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. And while he has been given a call to preach... he possesses a special gift to see spirits and a special gift to discern.

Scenario #3. As a child, she was chosen early by God to be unique in every way. You see, as an infant, she scared her parents for she could see things that others could not. Yes... her spiritual eyes were truly enhanced for she saw heavenly angels. From infancy to now... she is encamped with angels all around her.

Satan was aware of this... so he tried to attack the spirit woman within by using the past of a father that wanted nothing to do with her and the spirit of alcoholism to attack her stepfather. The biggest blow was her sister and mother... you see this girl was with a man off and on and while she was “in love”, her sister and mother... made things worse because they felt that he was all wrong for her. And while they may have been true... nature took its course.

Eventually she was face with a baby and basically being a single parent. And while she had some rough times, she did make a decision to use this situation to overcome. She then was reminded of her gift from childhood. The gift to see beyond the physical eye. And in through that gift, the gifts of nurturing and leadership came from God.

Today she is successful woman of God with a ministry to coordinate major events and most importantly share the love of God with all. She too is an example to follow for she accepted a challenge from God to be a holy and acceptable vessel only to be used by God so that she can go to the next level in God... as well as her family, friends and this world.

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These are partially fictional... but who knows you might find yourself in bits and pieces of the scenarios. I guess the point that I want to make it this:

Everyone has gifts and talents... they can be used for good or evil. And then everyone is anointed... Which I believe is another realm... I feel that the anointing can only be used for God’s Work. Satan is aware of this and so he will send spirits and devices one’s way to deter one from operating and growing in the anointing.

But be reminded...

That you are special in everyway. There are many challenges that we all face and we feel that what we deal with, is too much to bear. However, God reminds us that we have the power to bear the challenges and more. As of matter of fact, we have the power to speak into those challenges and cast them out.

THOUGHT: This past weekend... I was told, (by a woman who knows nothing about me), that some things were meant to kill, steal and destroy me, but those plans have been voided. As well as the ministry in is coming forth and it will be a blessing. I spoke to my grandmother about this and she talked about how foremothers and forefathers within the family were ministers and preachers. She also spoke on how my great-grandmother said that my dad would be a preacher. I didn’t see that for he has died, but maybe a preacher in heaven. Nonetheless one of my big brothers said something that brings things full circle:

Vincent, you have the opportunity that some in your lineage didn't have, and some aborted. A mantle has been passed down to you; from another place in the generations on one side of your family...I don't know which one. But, someone didn't fulfill what they were supposed to fulfill, and it searched through your genealogy, for someone who would be receptive and capable to finish what should have been. This came to you, and you are in the prime for it coming to pass. So, gird yourself up, stay focused and open and you will see the Mighty Hand of God work in your life in ways unimagined.... - Thanks Alan...

And what this confirms is what was told me on Saturday... what was told by the lady at the jewelry store (years ago)... that indeed there’s a word in me that God planted and it’s time for it to grow and bear fruit. I guess now I’m in the process of killing off the weeds lol... but that’s good too.

I say all this to say that, God hasn’t forgotten about the anointing on you. After all He placed it on you. The wilderness situation is there for a reason. You are killing the weeds that are surrounding your seed. And eventually, with the nourishment of God’s love... the sprout will come and before you realize, the tree trunk will be firm. And before you realize it... you will bear the fruit that will heal... deliver... and set free many...

And don’t be scared... I know right now, it is hard times... but the weeds are being killed for a reason... after all... you can’t grow if your soil is not fertile....

Think about it...

Lil’ Son Chronicles ~ Rescue 9-1-1

This actually was a show that use come on in the late 80’s and went through to the mid-90’s. I would watch it from time to time. It kind of reminded me of Cops... but a little more serious. Nonetheless, there is another thought that comes to mind as well. I recall watching a piece of sermon on You Tube that dealt with the numbers 9-1-1. Of course this sermon was post 9/11.

As we all are aware 7 years have past since that day. I can recall what I was doing that very day. I was a junior in college and I had just left the cafeteria as usual around 8:40 to go to my Modern Physics class. As usual, I would first stop in at the lab to check my email and have a quick laugh with Miss King. When I got into the lab everyone was staring at the T.V. Me being nosey I wanted to see as well. I looked at the television to see a plane crash into a building. My first reaction was I guess this a movie. And then I really looked and was like “Oh S**T!” As the day went along, I became even more numb to find out about the attack on the Pentagon and the crash in Pennsylvania.

To think that all those people that died on that day. Wow...

And 7 years later... as I sit and reflect I ask myself, “V, how can you be so selfish? To want to take your own life, while the people of 9/11 did not have a choice?” And even now, that hits me like a ton of bricks because, someone’s mom... dad... son... daughter... and so on lost their lives. And while God knows all, in my human mind, it’s like so many people got cut off without fulfilling their purpose. While only 4 years ago (in 2005), I was willing to cut myself off from fulfilling God’s purpose. A classic trick of the human side with the aide of the enemy.

Today; however, I can stand more firm than ever. At times it’s frightening because, the hope is that I don’t come off as being conceited or arrogant but rather humble, confident, and grateful. But God knows and that’s what counts. Now, while there are things that may bother me, for some reason I just won’t allow the issues of this world to hinder me anymore. Call me crazy, but it’s like surge of newness that flows in its own way and everything that was meant or meaning to throw me off track... only reminds me of how important it is to stay on track. Now granted I have my moments, but only for so long can I focus on it... and the spirit man says, “Okay, enough of that ... time to get back on track and move to the next track.”

As of lately, work has been busier and it seems that a lot of people are just going through just for sake of going through. Sometimes, I get a little frustrated because, some issues that we all deal with... we really can over come but that little thing called emotions seems to cloud the relationship with God. Let’s look at a 2 scenarios...

Scenario #1 - It’s easy to sit back and not say anything. Especially when you are doing all the “right things” in others’ eyesight or when you are not aware. But then you forget or never realize... YOUR VOICE DOES MATTER. And this isn’t a cliché that should only stand for when it comes time to vote. YOUR VOICE COUNTS FOR EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING CONCERNING YOU AND GET THIS... IT’S FREE... The time for being timid and shy about who you are and whom’s you are needs to stop.

Scenario #2 - Loving yourself. Now maybe because God is revealing things to me, based on my past, but I wonder how we can say we love and trust God (whom we never seen) and yet we put up with all the confusion that is blatant and in our physical sight from him/her? How do you claim that you love him/her and you know they mean no good? In no way are they helping you to grow or you helping them to grow. And really that goes past relationships... more so with people in general. And maybe, just maybe the key is starting with self. On some levels that can be a challenge, based on upbringings and events. But when all boils down to it, you have to look in the mirror and ask yourself, “What do I want for me? What do I like about me? Do I love myself? What are some good qualities that I posses that must grow? What are some areas that need to be changed? Am I hindering someone from their destiny because I would seek my destiny?” And so on and so on... I think if we, with God leading, can began to answers these important questions, we won’t experience the difficulties of the people that “claim to be for us/us being for them,” yet on the level of BS.

So I say this: Put aside the hurts for minute. Stop looking to momma and daddy for all the answers. Stop with the silent agreeing when you feel that you should speak up. Think about the fact that you are a child of God... Seriously... think about that.

A Child of God should not sit and wallow in sorrow. A Child of God must always know within themselves that God loves them, they love themselves and that solution to everything lies within, His Word... Prayer Life... and Praise & Worship...

I took the title Rescue 9-1-1 for a reason:

Psalm 91:1 - He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.

THOUGHT: I heard this in a song before, but it’s the truth... “Why are you trying to figure it out, when God has already worked it out?” Because you don’t see the outcome with the physical sight, you chosen to fall for all the distractions. That’s we are to walk by faith (spiritual eyes) and not by sight (physical eyes). As well as this, speak over yourself. You can be your own disadvantage or your own advantage. Do you choose to believe that 9-1-1 can mean your completion? Think about it... 9-1-1=7... Complete ... and indeed... it is finished.

Father God,

I thank You for grace and mercy. I ask that you be with the families and loved ones of the 9/11 attacks. Comfort them, as well as the Nation at large in the way Only You can provide. And Lord, so many hurts are out there trying to hinder us from Your Way, but God I ask that You have Your Way in everything that concerns us and the Plan that You laid out for us...

In Jesus Christ Name...

Amen.

More Than J.A.M. (Just A Melody) ~ Unimaginable Realities

This where is my mind at lol... All over I guess, but in a good way. Question...

Have you ever dream up a a better tomorrow? And now you wonder is it possible...

Well the good news is that it is. And while it may not happen exactly the way you want it... God will supply you will all that you need and then some... But in the midst of asking for the better tomorrow... make sure you ask Him to come in your life today...

My girl Mary J broke it down in this song... and while this song is about a man coming into a woman's life.. listen to the words and apply it to the relationship that you and God are in. Or that you may be longing to be in. Enjoy and a great weekend...

THOUGHT: It is something when you forget about all that you ask God of and you just remind yourself of His Perfect Love for you.